Misty rivers... where I'm swimming with my eyes closed

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

~ 6:43 PM ~

hello unknown, plz identify who you are or I wont know.

We had a meaningful civics lesson today in the audi. Be a running river and not a stagnant pond. Compare with people who are worst off than you coz its a fact of life(sounds wrong). We should feel lucky that we can see the bright sunshine every morning and complain to our friends about our monotous life every sch day as well as come back home safely after a long tiring day of work.

Its not we dont smile at all. Sometimes, it is just another thing that comes naturally and at the right instance. We cannot force one out, neither can we fake one. Every smile is genuine and every moment is precious

Swimming Alone.

Monday, March 30, 2009

~ 9:27 PM ~

today was supposed to be a free day after 145, but had to rush back home and chiong back to school at 5pm to meet council teachers for elects' camp briefing.

Had lunch with mum and dad today at Jack's Place and had a small talk over matters. I had to catch up, I need to buck up, I will head forward.

Time flies like a soaring eagle. When in the skies, it stays at a constant speed. Once it zooms down, its speed is unmeasurable. Decided to pack my room and dedicate part of my table to some files. I really miss the old days where I could just sit back and relax and still catch up in my work.

Treasure that period. On land or water, its just another analogy. Things went well some time and situation turns sour ocassionally. Even if its just a moment, i will still treasure it.
Learn from a baby, cry and forget. Learn from the sky, rain and shine. Learn from the tree, grow and cover...

Swimming Alone.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

~ 5:29 PM ~

I am so blur about the e-learning process. So far, I only went through physics and chemistry.

Went to school in the morning for council game fest. Congrats, its another adhoc over!!! The weather has been hot for the past few days. My family had to escape from the heat and run out of the house to go to American Club to enjoy the air-con. There is so many things to worry about and I think we have really become full time councillor and part time student. That could just be the price we have to pay. Nonetheless, it is still up to ourselves to control the extent of it. I must say that time flies real fast. From sec3 to now, mr Tan hock ping has prove me right when he told us time flies. I really miss the days in Sec sch, nothing to worry about. I miss my nice friends who will joke with me like we are jokers. Life has been a peaceful river at the moment...

I really treasure that moment, even if it is just a moment. That moment was the moment of truth and resilience. Strive far and glide through. Be flexible and be true...

Addicted to my sister's new found lame song... mr brown

Swimming Alone.

Friday, March 27, 2009

~ 9:01 PM ~

Enough is enough! Mad is Mad!

Games is crazy,especially the games brainstorming part. I really stared into blank space while doing so. Met jiwei at bukit gombak today, a very very far away place from my comfortable home. Anyway, we went Macs which was surprisingly quiet. We did a few RAMs and some ideas until my Com suddenly black out. We were like " oh my god. What the hell?!" freaked out like mad. Luckily after many times of trying and trying. The file managed to be retrieved!!! So, we were like ownage. We got like 8 CIP Hours just for this meeting which was supposed to only last for 4 hours. I went back on a very crowded train and slept through the long tiring journey but I somehow seem to enjoy bus rides more than train rides. I instant KO when I came back home.
Oh ya, Thanks to jiwei for buying me a large milo!!! and we realised one lame thing. Laughter can actually make you gain more calories and lose more calories at the same time!!!

It is a tough journey ahead. Hang on and Press on. We will be there soon

Swimming Alone.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

~ 6:27 PM ~

Today was a day that I cannot forget. The elects' camp comm rocks totally. Can somehow change topic change until damn fast and it gets me and the rest excited.

Peace is idealistic, not realistic. There are so many things happening in our daily lives. Some may seem to be just a superfical thing, but we must understand that there are more things to worry about. Life ain't about worry, it is a two way thing. I am so tired. really shagged. I watched a meaningful show-PDR-Pride, Determination and Resilience. These values were the ones that made this group of people realised the need to be true to yourself and confident. For a cause, for a reason, for peace and for the sake of yourself, no matter how life has been torturing you, there is always a fated route to take and to conquer.

Swimming Alone.

~ 12:42 AM ~

AJI is finally over. Congrats to all. Thanks elects/councillors.=)
Had a lot of fun doing backstage with elects. It really made my day. I am very shagged now and I still have a meeting tomorrow at 8am in the morning. ARGHHH.... elects' camp. Its gonna be the best ever...

Its not time to say goodbye. I wanna say hello

Swimming Alone.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

~ 12:24 AM ~

Today was a ok day. Except I dunno why the guys kept laughing in the classroom about some lame stuff. But I had my fun. HAHA!

Council is really getting the hell out of me. Like what joerh said, Part time student, Full time Councillor. Elects' camp Games are really kinda headache for the fact that me myself and jiwei have no prior experience. I was planning to sleep earlier until I dreamt of Elects' camp Games. I dunno why but I just did. Then, in the end, I woke up and do the proposal. At this stage, I also feel that I really need more brain juice!!! Think harder and harder and even harder. I really kind of have no time to study. Right, then I shouldnt be blogging too.

Better go chiong the econs essays I owe ms Kat for 2 weeks=-=

Swimming Alone.

Monday, March 23, 2009

~ 11:53 PM ~

Had a long day today and came home like 10pm. AJI can be considered a success from what I have observed from the recent months. The goodie bag is good. The performers are ready. The equipments are ready. The emcees are good. Everything seems perfect.

Elects' camp ad hoc had our 1st meeting today and I am games comm. ZZZ. My worst nightmare. No matter what happens, I will try my best to bring the best out of the elects during this camp. Elects camp 2009 will be different I assure. It will be the best camp you ever had during your JC life I bet with you all elects. The games will be a hell of a fun!=) Trust me.

I am really dumbfounded. Is this what it is gonna be?

Swimming Alone.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

~ 9:14 PM ~

SL is officially over and I really hope the kids had something to take away from our activities besides the fun factor and also I wish them all the best in whatever they do and remain as happy as ever.=) I was very pleased with my team as they were polite and sociable. I didnt really had to break the ice because they did it themselves so I was kind of happy in a sense.

One really really unfortunate thing happen to me today. I vomitted at the swimming pool for the second time. How bad can that be? Is my fitness really so bad or is it just an accident? AHHHHHH!!!!

Perceptions are views that are rather biased unless for a good reason you had that thinking. Its hard to guess and think the same way as another person especially when you might think you know the person but in fact you dont at all. People do drift away from others and someday they might just bump into each other again. But when they do, do they still remember? do they still attempt? do they still try? The water is clear, the sky is empty, the heart is innocent. It just makes no sense...

Swimming Alone.

Friday, March 20, 2009

~ 11:37 PM ~

The holidays are gonna be over soon!!! Sad to say I didnt really do much for this week. I think we should give ourselves a pat on our back to be praised for the hard work put in for the past days.

Reading some of my old stuffs just now and I realised that AJC has been such a wonderful place with so many nice people around. My life has been coloured and impacted by these people-every single one of them. We may lead a mundane lifestyle but we may have forgotten the happy times we made ourselves and spent them together. A true meaning of friendship only last that moment which decided the real path to take at a point of no return. I need a different place, different moment and different path.

Swimming Alone.

~ 1:41 PM ~

Woke up in the morning and rushed to school with a Mac burger in my hands. Packing 1000(ONE THOUSAND) goodie bags is no joke, seriously. AJI is round the corner and it seems like its gonna be a big bang in AJC 2009. The contestants this year are relatively good especially one solo vocalist. I can like totally immerse in her voice lah. Back to the packing, We were like mass producing some goodie bags like in a factory. I was counting counting counting until mr ng came in and there goes my counting. We had to restart counting. Mr ng is one funny guy that always make me wanna disturb him lah. Cannot control.

Its pretty dark outside now and I hope it rains but stop at around 4 so that I can go to tuition in peace. What I can really say is POWER sia councillors.

Swimming Alone.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

~ 9:04 PM ~

It seems that time passes so fast but people are realising that they are taking too long a time for their stuff. Now, I am a student. So, I am suppose to take studies as 1st priority. But the fact that the education system is so competitive really place the interest in studies of students at a much lower level. I went to the USP talk today which was quite enriching. They provide opportunities for people to do things of their interest as well as study the course they should be taking. The fact that this is a scholar's programme means that only elites can do this. We are all aware about the fact that education is vital to our community but can we rise up to the occasion when it comes? Probably only the best of the best.

A mirror may seem to be an aid to see yourself better in it through your reflection. But we do not know what is behind the mirror. Seeing yourself through here is so superfical when you are aware that it is only a reflection, a "copy" of yourself. Take a step back, relax and think about the reasons for the things you do and by the time you have taken your step, you will understand yourself better from a totally different perspective.

Swimming Alone.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

~ 9:57 PM ~

today was another shiok day because I spent my whole day in school again!!!really no time to study already!!! Somemore tmr have the game fest trial. I really need to study and I need motivation...

Talked to mr ng regarding some issues and I realised that I may have the wrong perception about life for the past few years. Nevertheless, the right thing is to still just do your best no matter what happens.

To all who helped me one way or another, Thank you so much, I really appreciate it. Truly, your small acts meant that much.=)

To all who believed in me, I promised that I'll do my best in the things I do and hope for the best for everyone.=)

It was just that moment that made me have such a strong faith, but it seems to be fading away...

Swimming Alone.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

~ 10:25 PM ~

Its a monday tomorrow and let me illustrate how I am gonna spent it.

First thing in the morning, SL dry run in school. I am a upper Primary Facilitator and the Logistics member who is aimming for maximum CIP hrs.=) 9am to 12pm. Halfway through, I will leave for council duty at 11 and then join back my class at 1230 for some buying of logistics. This will drag until about 5 like that at douby ghaunt. I wonder how am I gonna have the energy to sustain!!!

Life is like a piece of lemon. Yellow on the outside who is seemingly bright and tasty. However, a piece in mouth tells it all. sour, sour and sour. Sour maybe a good thing afterall if it has a tinge of sweetness in it. How ironic life can be. But to me, it is a joyful experience.

Swimming Alone.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

~ 9:30 PM ~

Today was a great day totally except for the fact that I didnt get to sleep enough. 1st day of holiday was kinda empty because there are no funny people around me like the 23/08 gang, council gang and random friends who I like talking nonsense with. Well, I just realised that I keep making funny comments that has no link in it at all. My sister and bro were like laughing at my "lame" joke.

Oh well, I spent most of my afternoon and morning at American Club trying my best to absorb some notes but to no avail. Had a nice lunch at some Japanese restaurant at Heeren basement. However, I am still sad to announce that I am still a bit sick. Had persistent Flu and Cough and Sore Throat, but most of it are fading away already which is good and thanks to my mum for giving me "liang Teh" to chase the cough away. Swimming was ok today except for the fact that I regretted helping my friend to swim part of the lap because I would be harming him if I did so and I did inadvertently. Sorry and I will not do it again.

Meeting 23/08 peeps and council 25th! soon and our lan Session is STILL ON!!! Although kinda rusty, I will still go!!!=) SL dry run this monday, Council duty this monday and wed. USP talk this wed and I really hope there is still an OBS outing!!! quickly organise!!!=)

this is not the way. Let the light show us

Swimming Alone.

Friday, March 13, 2009

~ 10:17 PM ~

hey all!

Today was a tiring day. Several sad things though... 1st of all, Cheerleading. Combining all the houses together definitely eliminates the fun factor in the competition. But I can really see the house comm people trying their best to think of ways and ideas. Hmmm, now I am still considering if i should take part in cheerleading this year since I would not be representing jaguar. 2ndly, I am officially sick and has not been so since last year Nov holidays. The flu is irritating and my throat is painful. How I wish I can be free from all illness!!!
Swimming lesson starts tomorrow and I hope I would be well enough to swim!!!

March Holidays= no holidays.

Is it becoming a norm that I dont feel the same again? or do you?

Swimming Alone.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

~ 10:25 PM ~

today was a tiring day esp after pe
I was supposed to train 6 rounds but I miscalculated and accidentally ran 7 rounds! No wonder I was so tired! however, I did managed to catch some AJidol performance after PE. There was this girl that sang until like I can immerse in her voice like that. Now then I realised AJ actually has such talents. I really want to hear her SING AGAIN!!!!!!!

Min thu and I almost fell asleep during tuition!!! sorry mr yong!!! I will try to pay more attention in your lessons.=)
Remarkably, I have to say that I did enjoy my thursday although I didnt get to swim for the week again!!! oh wells, have to wait until sat then.=)))

Swimming Alone.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

~ 7:33 PM ~

I have something to declare!!!
I am going to skip my GP LECTURE TMR coz of council.=)
(not that I want to)

today was another hectic and I forced myself to stay awake for the two consecutive lectures in audi with the help of the fisherman friend. I shall try that some other time.=) Wanted to go swim today but mum asked me to come home early for dinner... sian. but I had a very very full dinner.=)

I want and need to improve my physical fitness. I need to jump further, run faster and swim better.AH!!! I need to train. WHO CAN HELP ME???? BIG QUESTION MARK!!!

I saw you today again. Its still burning, but what can I do? havent I decided? but it seems like a long road ahead. The path is still unclear and the big question is will it ever be cleared? Will I see you at the other end of the path? I'm losing stamina and breaths... Its really not up to me...

Swimming Alone.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

~ 7:37 PM ~

Today was freaking hot!!!
SO! I decided to take bus home at about 3pm. The air-con in the bus was excellent! haha! I didnt mind taking the bus alone and daydream in there for about 15 bus stops.=)

How to slack the whole day?
SLEEP!!!!! or rather nap!!!=)

wanna swim real soon.

Swimming Alone.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

~ 9:05 PM ~

Having mixed feelings for the past two days, I really cannot accept that fact. Am I meant to always not achieve the best in everything I do. The fact that I had high hopes to what I feel I did the best, the greater the disappointment is gonna be. Its not something that one can learn from and do it again. This is really something that will only happen once in a lifetime. Did I really not make the best out of it? I really hope things will just go well and I am really clueless of what I am expecting of myself now.

Saturday was a fruitful day. Literally so because my family decided to cheer up by not going easy on the durians and mangosteens. We spent close to a hundred dollars on the fruits. It really took me a while to realise that my family has been really more than kind to me and acceptable of who I am. We laughed for at least 1 hr while eating the durians. haha. Apart from the literal meaning of fruitful, I attended a Public Speaking Workshop in school. The guy seemed to the one enlightening us about the things that are special in us and what we should believe in. However, lets face reality. Things may not always turn out your way. Its good that you have your own beliefs and values. But can these things keep you out of danger? Do they really have an impact on others? No doubt, they play an important role in shaping not just your character, but part of your destiny. But the truth is only some are up to it.

Sunday was a great day, having the whole day spent at tuition centre. I didnt mind the fact that I have to attend tuition again for 2 moreyears after sec sch, in fact I am very grateful that my parents are supportive of me also.=) I kinda embarrassed myself today in class when I almost burst into laughter after recieving rueylin's sms and the teacher was like staring at me with that weird expression. HAHA

Apart from my daily life, I am grateful to my friends who have one or other highlighted my life and made it colourful till today tomorrow and my whole school life. Friends and families are the real treasure of our lives. They are the ones who do things to make you happy, do things to make you sad, do things to help you and sometimes need us to do things to help them. Its a give and take, care and share, love and help, be there for each other. I will still remember the words that came from my instructor in OBS: expect the unexpected.

high expectations...

Swimming Alone.

Friday, March 6, 2009

~ 10:02 PM ~

The scene today was a repeat of what happen two years ago when I was collecting my O lvl CL results. But luckily this time, I made it!=)

I have to admit I was feeling a bit negative yesterday until my friend consoled assured me. thanks a lot!=) A level results were released today and I think AJC did quite well except for Physics I think.

To all my beloved friends,
If you have done well, I feel very happy for you too. Your efforts paid off! jiayou

If you feel that the results didnt meet your expectations, Dont worry and dont be sad, there is a second chance. I learnt it too from my O lvl chinese when I got a B3 during the 1st paper. I retook 3 times and got a A2 in the end. Its not impossible. The most impt thing is the end point and ending line that all will reach. Lastly, from the bottom of my heart, its not the end, I want the people around me to do well too. All the best and move on happily. You can do it! Lets go for it!

you just walked past me without noticing...

Swimming Alone.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

~ 11:00 PM ~

Is it a mistake?

I have no idea.

Today was a tiring day as usual, but this has to carry on for 1 more year before serving the NS! Napfa is on tuesday and I really hope to get a gold again for it. I already bought my 80 cents red bull so that I can complete my 2.4km and 5 stations during that one hour. Homework is like a heap of mountain as usual. I suddenly found my interest back in swimming. So, I am gonna swim more after my napfa and I wanna train my butterfly stroke!!! swim like a dolphin.

Council again. My mentees are nice people and I do hope they can learn a thing or two under me for the next week. Council is really a nice CCA to be in but you have to decide if you can make the mark, not us. AJ idol has reached to a completion in the case of their auditions. I wonder who get in man. Such a suspense. Just received a relay to do aar by next week. That means another day late back in school again!

really cannot wait to go into the water again and swim a few rounds!

What a mistake?

Swimming Alone.