Misty rivers... where I'm swimming with my eyes closed

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

~ 8:25 PM ~

Its a tiring day today... I dont know why but I feel tired and sick of everything... had a very bad dream last night. Was kinda scary and freaky. There is sports carnival tomorrow and it seems like ajc is becoming more and mroe quiet after those recent events. hope tomorrow's one will be a better one than last year. Good luck to runners!=)

sick and tired and we are all still trying...

Swimming Alone.

Monday, April 27, 2009

~ 11:05 PM ~

Am I missing out a lot?

Its dark and quiet here...

Swimming Alone.

~ 5:48 PM ~

Oops.... wrong move again...=-=

Swimming Alone.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

~ 8:54 PM ~

Lazy to do anything... slping seems to be my current hobby..=)

Tomorrow's monday again...4 hrs of chemistryyyyyyyy.......... Not that I am complaining but I really cannot tahan the long hours spent in a tutorial... Many things to do and many stuffs to be done. I wonder why people can be so hiong sometimes.

Always wanted to catch X-men-origins of wolverine but cannot seem to find anyone to catch it with coz my siblings seem not to like the hairy guy with claws.. hahaha.

I will change I promise. I will try I reassure you. I will settle it once and for all!!! but thats if I have the chance.. haha.. PILES OF HWWWWWW!!!!!! someone save me!!!!!AHHHHHH

Swimming Alone.

Friday, April 24, 2009

~ 10:12 PM ~

This world can be a parady at times. For the past few days, I kept having this disillusion that people(HUMANS!) are kind creature who always do the right things at the right time. What a lie. my wallet got freaking stolen today. The best part was that the crime scene is in the guys toilet. But come to think of it, its the best place to commit whatever you wanna commit. The point is that my bag wasnt open and it got ransacked. Kudos to the stealer who got a spare 17 dollars to enjoy whatever he needs to and also admire my ezlink photo. Better Luck next time huh. Try aiming those with bigger pockets and not those who will only keep less than an expected value, $50? and so my beloved wallet which I kept for a year is gone is a flash. Time to use the new one and catch up with fashion? What the heck?!

Pissed is the only word I can describe to anyone who ask me abt what happen. Never mind, its once in a while I hope at least for the person.=). A very very impt lesson to you,sir, REPENT! My class guys are very supportive of this term. PLEASE TAKE IT SERIOUSLY!

On a lighter note, basically it ruined my day. Couldnt study or whatsoever... seriously. okay, enough of rattling... I realised.... my class laughing gang has been laughing non stop every single day in AJC and I think we can live life a little longer thanks to our hard work.=) the current joke is the "no deal!!!" from the deal or no deal show. For more info, can approach any of our members. HAHAHAHA

I'm at loss... seriously...

Swimming Alone.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

~ 10:16 PM ~

The weekends are coming!!! should I really do smthg abt it? HAHA. this means mugging like a zombie. So many things to do and catch up... PCME is like my life now and I cannot bear to forsake any, not to forget GP. But seriously friends, Results are really really not everything. Most impt is you take pride in the work you do. Every stroke, every thought, every word is used with a rationale. Results may be the prove of your work but we must never be discouraged by them even if its the other way. Tuition today was quite effective and I really hope to retain the information I learnt over the weeks. HAHa. good luck to guys who are having more and more matches coming up. I really hope to go there and do cheer support especially in the finals. AJC soccer made it possible. This team is marvaleous... Keep going people.

Feel* in the blanks... Its true...

Swimming Alone.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

~ 6:39 PM ~

Even if its just a while... its still there...

Swimming Alone.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

~ 10:50 PM ~

I totally missed the old days I had with the jokers.( cat high dudes) Today, tuition was exceptionally funny because we appeared to be quite dumb and in our unique ways. Mr yong was quite amused and we started laughing like almost every second someone said something. I also learnt a very valuable lesson today- dont bite off more than what you can take. Its a matter of time everyone turns into a mugger and start chionging like some hamster on the spinning wheel. The competition is fierce and the stress is intense. Rarely, we get to see more laughter and stress relieving times. There are some people who you can always rely on to bring your life to a more interesting track rather just a hasty train by the sidelines.

more than that.

Swimming Alone.

Monday, April 20, 2009

~ 9:14 PM ~

I have something to declare: ionic equilibria sucks to the max... I just dont get it.. need someone kind to teach me patiently... Today was quite a hectic day. Got so tired that I sleptt in the library without knowing I slept.o.O As usual, we laugh like mad today again. I think can call ourselves laughing gang in AJ already. seriously, We can own people... Lots of fun but also lots of stress on me. Ever since EC, I have been lagging behind badly which was evident when I couldnt catch my breath in the chemistry tutorial today. There is also something I realised today= the power of GC must not be underestimated...The greater the hopes, the more disappointment to expect.=-= What is this world turning to?

There is a reason behind evey single face... every single expression and every single look... There is someone somewhere somehow trying to be the one and the only one there...

Swimming Alone.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

~ 8:49 PM ~

I'm back from elects camp. the experience was great and fun but at the same time scary. 2009 council elects are ready to take up their new challenges in their coming term of office.

On the saturday morning, I bought a burger and ate it in my dad's car while waiting for my reporting time. Initially, I thought that the camp was gonna be an easy one but I did not expect the expectations set by us on the elects to be so high. We scolded, scream, pump them for the sake that they will learn their mistakes. The tone of the camp was freaking awesome. I must say Lena was superb in setting the tone right. Although games session 2 and sunrise mass game was kinda =-=!!!, our games comm did pretty well overall and also learnt much more than what we expected.=)

The night JUST BEFORE ELECTS' CAMP IN COUNCIL ROOM...

Sunrise mass game Last station

councillor Jermyn Heng

dont be afraid to live up to your fear, dont be shy to admit the true value of things within your heart.

Swimming Alone.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

~ 12:21 AM ~

Tomorrow is council CAMP. hope everything goes well and smooth... this 4 weeks were tiring but interesting...

Even the best fall down sometimes,
Even the wrong words seems to rhyme,
Whats in your mind?

finally find you and I collide...

Swimming Alone.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

~ 10:09 PM ~

Clearly, I was almost knocked out just now. Luckily, I took a bath and is awake now with ms jiwei to carry on with our games stuff. We went around today and took many photos. of coz not the camwhore kind. Those photos are for the games that will be used this weekend. I view my schedule for elects' camp. Practically no time to rest at all. Games can be said to be one of the toughest adhoc to be in but it is sure worth the experience and creative thinking. Fortunately, there is not much things left to do except for the fact there is PHYSICS SPA TMR.
Reminder to self: please bring GP TYS TOMORROW, please bring SPA notes tomorrow and please bring PHYSICS TYS TMR.

I'm so sorry i didnt take the opportunity... It came knocking back at me but I just shoved it aside. . . a chance is just but the number of times you can get a number on a face of a dice. Its luck and faith, not just courage.

Swimming Alone.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

~ 10:19 PM ~

life in council can be much expressed in terms of sacriface of precious time which should be allocated efficiently for studying... I love council, no doubt. Its tough, real tough. Its coming to an end real soon. No more proposals, no more brainstorming, no more meetings, no more logistics and no more programme sheets. alright, Lets come back to reality, I still have to work hard for elects' camp although its like 4 days away.REALLY REALLY HOPE EVERYTHING TURNS OUT FINE IN ELECTS CAMP!!!=)

I think my adhoc members all slept an average of 4 hrs a day recently and later I still have to be online to chiong my game proposal... Its real tough, real tough. I also might need some kind soul to remind me to being my camera tomorrow. I cannot believe I missed that out today.

My Napfa was kinda screwed. got a silver thanks to the 3 secs more I had on the stopwatch that took my timing for 2.4km. I had supporters by the sidelines. Sorry that I kinda screwed up this station. however, I am still proud of myself that I crossed the 250cm barrier for my standing broad jump. ANyway, the main thing is no more 8 weeks extra for army...=)
Good luck to jason ong tomorrow for his napfa test!=)

It was a peaceful night. Real peaceful, until there was this shooting star that flew across like an eagle in the skies. You caught my attention and held it tight. It was like entangling in a net filled with spikes. I really need to get out of this predicament. really. but sometimes, I wonder how and wonder why.

Swimming Alone.

Monday, April 13, 2009

~ 10:51 PM ~

it has been 4 months into 2009 and time seems to fly like no one's business. Event management was relatively okay I would say although I must admit i didnt really prepare that well for it. Haiz, better luck next time in elects camp. I think I can be somewhat a Hero already this week. Today was the events management. Tomorrow there is napfa retest. Wednesday is council meeting. Thursday is Econs timed practice and Friday is left for prep for elects camp. I will probably go crazy. My face might just turn sour during the camp when I see elects walking past me. I really do not want to revive the old days in SJAB where We will screw people. HAHAHA. Sounds Evil.

I'll do it. I'll promise you this time. Its about the faith and not the luck. You shall see... Tomorrowwww....

Swimming Alone.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

~ 11:25 AM ~

My brother went for his goldstar swimmingg test yesterday. I think he should feel very lucky when the weather turned bad suddenly and forcing us to stop the survival test in the middle. He sure had hell lot of time to rest and conserve his energy. Queestown is really really far away from my house. Nonetheless, it was worth it because my brother passed HIS GOLDSTAR TEST!!! I am feeling happy for him also.. haha.

Here are some pictures during the preparation for the test

the picture was here earlier on.... somehow it vanish..

He seems to have more energy right? haha

Stuck under the shelter thanks to the rain....

I have a pressing issue at the moment which is to catch up on my fitness coz NAPFA retest is this week and I dont wantt my stamina to pull me down again!!!!

It has been a while, a long while since I last heard of you. I need to get over it and be done with. I can linger around no more, waiting for signs and silence. I thought I was stronger, apparently not.... Its not just about you... its more than just a mere dive from the 7m tall jump board...

Swimming Alone.

Friday, April 10, 2009

~ 7:59 PM ~

Cant wait for elects' camp to be over cause the point is that I keep thinking about it but I have no clue abt what can I do about it. The stress is building up like a garbage truck. LOL

On a lighter note, I feel like a pig now. I slept the whole day. How amazing it can be to sleep the whole day without having the time to do anything else. The only useful thing is to go for tuition in the morning and slack the rest of the day. Maybe can catch some nice movie later. My room is back in a mess thanks to all the TYS and notes as well as my clothes. I really think I need to either get rid of some clothes or buy a new wardrobe for myself already. The civcs electives are crazy. The rate people are signing up for popular courses is the great singapore sale. I dont even have the chance to sign up for some other course I wanted.

We have come to a point of no return. how ironic is can be when time flies like mad but we are still stuck at this stage where things are almost stagnant. whether there is another way out, we will have to struggle out ourselves. Take a step back or forward can really reflect your true inner self at that point of time.

Swimming Alone.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

~ 10:09 PM ~

Today was heart-stopping and racing to an extent. PW results were shocking at that moment and that was all it took.

To AJ107:
Always remember that we did our best on the actual day of OP, spending hours on WR, churning research to facilitate our discussion and also of course our brainstorming session. This journey made our lives more entertaining( I FIND IT TRUE) and also more enriching in a sense we learnt many valuable takeaways from this journey. The journey of our "journey" is a complete one. We reached our destination and saw the new horizon from the top of our mountain. looking back was our hardwork and laughter that brought us together as a team, a pw group and a fun-loving unit. We may seem to forgotten the real objective of the journey, but we must always remember that it has happened and we reap our benefits from it nevertheless. SO, no matter how we feel about our grades are really up to us to look at it. From a realistic point of view, lets face it. its just another H1. The more important one is our 4h2, our qiang xiang! GP is definitely 1000times more impt. Lets work on it.=) From an objective perspective, I can say that we should be proud of ourselves. We learnt a lifeskill and must not regret this journey. Challenge ourselves to greater heights and promise this team that we will not shed another tear or let the sadness dominate our feelings. Take the future as a bet, a challenge, do to the best we can and let our JC life be of no regrets.=)))

To Kendrick:
This subject may seem like a bane to you. I understand the amount of hardwork you put in. Our buckets are filled with these sweat and sleepless nights. Grades might seem to be of importance now, no doubt it is, but most importantly, we learn from this and work even harder. we are 23/08, what things cannot be done with our ability? aim higher!!!=)))

To my friends who are reading this:
I hope PW was a great learning journey for us. No matter what was on that paper, move on and dive further/fly higher. Do not ever doubt your abilities, we can be more than what we expect. The main thing is we must have this strong will to strive on and be there for each other.

I am glad some of my friends were fine and happy after release of results. BE HAPPY AND SMILE ALWAYS LIKE I ALWAYS DO!!!=)))

I did take the lead, I'll wait, wait till the sun really sets in the west and rise in the east. The horizon is that barrier, the barrier I will overcome.

Swimming Alone.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

~ 11:56 PM ~

Today was a tiring day and I am half asleep while i am typing this. Got spelling error dun blame me. Had a long long long discussion with Mr ng and Adhoc today at 530. Thank him so much for staying back to help us brainstorm our mass games. thanks to adhoc and jiwei too for helping out. This is crazy I tell you. Like an econs concept- Limited resources with limited time. This is really testing the patience and resilience of jiwei and I in Games comm. Thanks to mark for preparing the logistics for games trial tmr.

Pe was kinda slack today and I kinda regret not going for the actual thing I am supposed to go-2.4km run. =-= !!! but I really hope I can improve. Games trial tmr, maths test tmr, econs tmr and lectures tmr!!! THIS IS CRAZY!!!!

you threw me in the net back then. I was wrong. cos you threw me with a net in the end. I am caught in the middle and I dont know what you want.

Swimming Alone.

Monday, April 6, 2009

~ 9:14 AM ~

family day was a success!!!

Thanks to everyone's help and patience. The preparation was mad. Most of the councillors had to juggle both their own stalls and the family day stuff. Stage helpers were like pratically at the stage most of the time until it started to rain when we could move back to our own stalls. We had fun most importantly although my stall seem to have made a loss.=(

There was like deflation of prices in desperation to clear the stocks. 8 oreo for 1 dollar. ice cream tub for 2 dollar. how bad can it get? oh wells.

Stuck in council room with these guys for stage helpers' preparation the day before.

Some funny story behind how we got the longans.=)

TADA! the aj bear. Its so cute that my mum bought it for me when she didnt bought the CH bear 3 years ago. she seems to like ajc a lot.=)

Family day is over and I wish AJC another happy 25 years down the road.

It isnt over. You may think I am not trying. Its hard to decide the way people wants things to be. Its our thinking and ability to reactive in cases, a totally different issue. Mixing them together may cover the real big picture. No matter what happens, I really hope the sky can be clear like the rainbow.

Swimming Alone.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

~ 10:19 PM ~

my brother is back from camp!!! haha. hope he really enjoyed it.

Today was a great day especially pe. I was dead beat after pe but i had to meet mr ng for the games proposal which was kinda a headache for the past few days. NOW, we need an idea for the mass game!!!

The sky is blue and it seems like I dont really recall the last time I saw that smile. Clouds are just like blankets, burying every single moment you treasure without you noticing. Its just another part and parcel of life. Accept it dude...

Swimming Alone.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

~ 9:26 PM ~

I really really really really need a word of encouragement...

arghhhh

Swimming Alone.

~ 6:26 PM ~

I written a whole lot of crap but my computer seem to fail me time and again. this time, my post couldnt be posted... I shall now summarise wat I have written just now.

Problems may seem to be easy to solve on the surface. Sometimes, it takes a lot of courage to do so. Persistent people are generally better at solving critical problems. Pebbles are small stones that could put a great weight on you if you carry them all at a go. Its time to let these small stones go, let them drop, let them fly, let them fall with pride, let them disperse with no regrets. Most importantly, we cannot let them break. Its a matter of time before you get the whole picture of things happening around you. Studies, council, friends, family, swimming or even self committment. Its a matter of perspective. If you are still not going to let these pebbles down, it will stunt your growth and for that matter, we are like seeds who will grow tomorrow and one day we will stand tall and see the wider perspective. Let them go...

Swimming Alone.